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Not pregnant at 28?

I'm looking down at the electronic test kit, killing time in that awkward three-minute wait before you get the "yes you are!" or, "no you're not pregnant!" results.   When I started to look online last night at the different types of test kits out there - I figured I'd bypassed the days of trying to decipher whether or not there were two lines on the stick, or if that was just a random smudge in the second window.

Sod it, I went. I'll just get the fancier version and go digital.

Depending on who's view you're looking at - I've been pretty fortunate. I've only ever had to do five of these tests before.  The first one was after my first time in college, and I nearly vomited in trepidation of waiting for the results.   There's a possibility that I may have fainted.  It came back negative.

The likelihood on each occasion has always been pretty low. I've been on some form of birth control for over half of my life.  I started with the pill when I was 12.  I'm now 28, and out of that period of time, there was only three months where I wasn't on something.  There was a great deal of time where I had no interest in ever falling pregnant. If I could just stay, y'know, not pregnant, forever - that'd be great. I'd considered asking how you get your inner bits out.

 

I look back down at the test.  The little clock is still flashing, and I'm guessing that it means it's considering whether or not it just wants to extend the anxiety out any further.   Realistically - it's a terrible time. If it is the case - it'd mean I'd be well into the 8-week mark.  It'd explain the bloating, and the SUPER amount of tiredness over the last few weeks.  Also the random increase in my boob size and why the sudden nauseous was rocking up at 4 am. (It wasn't like I went online and cross-checked symptoms or anything.)

But then, how absolutely inconvenient would that be?  Darwin's still another four months away at least, and that'd be put me at six months if that was the case? Are you even allowed to travel at six months? Nor would you realistically want to be on a plane for like five+ hours I wouldn't imagine.  Not to mention trying to find a house, and relocation costs and just -

The clock face flashes to a No. 

But I don't feel relieved. I almost feel a little sad. This wasn't the reaction I was expecting.  Maybe I'm maturing.  Maybe this is the part where I actually start growing up.   Being 28 and not pregnant is something that I didn't ever think I'd be concerned about, or would start to place thought into.  But here we are.  And I'm quite confused.

Clairesupersmall

Get to Know Me Questions – Part One

I had a super successful twitter poll last week where a bunch of people responded*,  and 50% said that they wanted to see a new "Get to know me" post.  I also realised the last time I actually did an about me post was two years ago when I first started the blog, and that's pretty damn terrible read if I do say so myself.

So! I'm listening to the masses and creating this sparkling new blog post of frequently asked questions and queries!**

*if you count a bunch of people as er, two people
**they haven't been asked at all, tbh.

1. What is a band that you listen to that people might not think you would?

 

One of my favourite bands at the moment is actually a hip-hop duo from South Africa; Die Antwoord.  Their music is actually crazy, incredibly in your face and the polar opposite of the usual Australian hip hop I'd normally be listening to - and yet somehow I  managed to get within their 1% of Spotify listeners a few months back.  They actually just released a new album which I was super excited for as I didn't think they were on this indefinite hiatus for a while, but I'm not super loving the new songs which is a bit of a shame.

2. Do you have any hidden skills or talents?

 

I'm not sure if I would call it a talent or a skill - but I'm really partial in learning new languages. I studied French for four years. I also started to learn Auslan (Australian Sign Language) for a few terms, and have also been dutifully logging into Duolingo every day to learn Indonesian.   Am I fluent in any of these? Nope.  Can I somewhat understand what people say and/or write?  Yes to French and Indonesian - not so much for Auslan anymore.

 

I can also touch type with an average speed of 92 WPM, and actually type faster if I'm not concentrating on the screen (ie, eyes closed) and I also freak people out by looking at them rather than the screen whilst typing which is always fun!

3. Where was your first trip that you can remember?

 

The first trip I can remember going on was when I was about five or six.  For some reason, my parents thought it'd be a fantastic idea for me to travel on my own halfway across the country to spend some time with my Aunt and Uncle in Alice Springs. (That was a fair solo journey!)  I had a really great time.  They had a spa in their back yard which was awesome.  I got my head stuck between the iron bars on their bed (not so awesome). We road-tripped across half of Australia to visit my other relatives in Sydney which was pretty sweet - until the last day when I lost my toy Dalmatian, I'd only got a few weeks prior for Christmas.  There are some pretty amazing photos of me in a total meltdown because of it.  Good times!

4. How do you want other people to see you?

 

This is actually a super tricky question now that I've written it down. (Slightly regretting putting it in!)  I guess I'd like people to see me as a really friendly person with a super bubbly personality.  I'd like to be seen as someone who will try and go out of their way to make people happy.

I'm super passionate about speaking up about mental health issues and awareness, and would also like to be eventually seen as a voice of said awareness as well.

5. When you were younger - what careers did you want to pursue?

 

  • A vet (I can't deal with seeing surgery)
  • An astronaut (too short)
  • A Disney Princess (also too short)
  • A Model (I get terrible, terrible mental health problems pursing anything model related)
  • A tour guide (still technically not too late)
  • A photographer (As above)
  • A sex therapist (also wouldn't say no!)
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6.  What is a quote that you relate to?

 

Traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort. Their bodies are constantly bombarded by visceral warning signs, and, in an attempt to control these processes, they often become expert at ignoring their gut feelings and in numbing awareness of what is played out inside. They learn to hide from their selves.

— “The Body Keeps The Score” by Bessel Van Der Kolk

 

I actually read the quote before reading the book - and the book is actually a really great non-fiction read and actually explained a lot of why my brain processes trauma different than some other people.  Admittedly, I had to stop reading about halfway through because it was a fairly confronting read, and my headspace went.  I'd be keen to continue it again at some point though ♥

7.  Name a place that you'd love to visit

 

Chicago has been calling me years and years. I'd love to visit.  Do I know what is there that I'd like?  Not a clue. But you know those times where you just have a feeling you need to do something, or go somewhere?  Chicago is that place for me.  Morocco and the Maldives are actually other places that keep popping up every couple of months which I'm sure means I should probably check them out as well sometime soon.  If you've got any insider knowledge about them - feel free to drop a comment below!


8.  What do you like to do in your downtime?

 

I actually enjoy being on the computer,  more than anything. I play a lot of online games. My favourite has to be Marapets, which is kinda like Neopets, except better. (I might be a tad bias considering I've been on the site for like nearly 14 years so...)

I also play quite a bit of World of Warcraft.  For offline gaming, I've also just picked the Sims 3 back up again.  I really am not digging Sims 4 (although I have nearly all of the expansions.)  I love Civ5,  and also just picked up Animal Crossing: New Leaf again after a few years ♥

 

 

 

 

I super enjoy watching Youtube and a couple of my faves currently are;

MrBeast - great for entertainment and heartwarming content
Jessica Kobeissi - she's a really good fashion photographer and I've found I've adopted a lot of her mannerisms (whoops)
Mango Street - a photographer couple who just produce AMAZING
Plumbella & Steph0sims - two of the best YouTubers who feature doing Sims playthroughs

You can also find my Youtube channel here!

 

 

9.  If someone wanted to be your friend - what topics could they bring up to start a conversation?

I think I probably covered a few of those in the last question!  I'm always up for conversations on:

 

  • The Sims
  • Harry Potter
  • Animal Crossing
  • Photography
  • Anything blog-related
  • Travel & Adventures

I also accept showing of hilarious Tik-Toks, and frequently used Vines.

10.  What are 5 songs that make you happy?

 

I actually made an Instagram post on how you should make a playlist for songs that make you smile.  You can check out my list here.  Some have particular memories attached to them, others are just really good for singing along to.  There's a couple there that just come with a bit of #GirlBoss vibes and I just love them.

A couple of my favourites:

  • So Am I - Ava Max  

    Do you ever feel like an outcast?
    You don't have to fit into the format
    Oh, but it's okay to be different
    'Cause baby, so am I

  • High Hopes - Panic! At the Disco 

    Had to have high, high hopes for a living
    Shooting for the stars when I couldn't make a killing
    Didn't have a dime but I always had a vision
    Always had high, high hopes

  • 7 rings - Ariana Grande 

    My wrist, stop watchin',
    my neck is flossy
    Make big deposits, my gloss is poppin'
    You like my hair?
    Gee, thanks, just bought it
    I see it, I like it, I want it, I got it

  • Price of Fame - 360

    That's what my passion is
    And I could go and buy a crazy, fresh Mercedes-Benz
    But I would rather help my mates in debt and pay their rent

  • 1955 - Hilltop Hoods

    We're living in the days when everybody sayin'
    "What a time to be alive"
    But I'm feeling out of place like I live in outer space
    'Cause it seems I'm stuck in time

Wooo!  That is it for part one!  Originally there was going to be all 28 questions in one neat list, but I realised that there's a lot to read so I'll let you get excited for the next part next week.

Was there anything thus far that you're surprised about? Do we have anything in common?
Should we be friends?  (insert *gasp* here)

Let me know in the comments!

Clairesupersmall

Selfie September 2019

Even though it's part of Selfie September - I wasn't going to post these.  Seriously, I looked at them after I took them  - and apart from the above display photo (which I actually super love),  and just hated the way I looked.

 

 

Self love isn't something I'm great at. I preach it - I yell it from the roof tops,  but actually for me to put it in action - haha yeah.  Not so much.  I've already made myself out to be a hypocrite once this week, and that's not something that I'm wanting to become a habit.  Therefore, that's why they're getting posted.  To say this is a scary is a bit of an understatement. These are seriously unedited (as in, photoshopped for the lumps and bumps. Certainly has had a few colours added here and there.) - and I'm not used to that.

But, if I'm going to be here being a bad ass bitch, and tell you to get off your ass and take progress photos - then I'm willing to take responsibility for my photos too.

Things that I realised:

 

  1. I have a surperb resting bitch face
  2. Orange and reds are totally my colours
  3. As much as I bloody love jumpsuits, that don't super flatter me
  4. Whatever rat-tail looking thing is currently curled at the back of my hair is absolutely needing to go the next time I'm at the hairdressers

On another side note - I attempted to record myself in the studio thinking YES. THIS IS IT. THIS IS THE TIME THAT I CAN FINALLY LOOK AMAZING AND PROFESSIONAL WITH A GREAT BACKGROUND.

 

Let me tell you how absolutely terrible that was; the echo. My good (*insert the echoey good-good-good*)  ness.  Nope, that was not going to work.  It could have worked if I was recording a commercial on how not to record a commercial - for my future ventures on YouTube though - not so much.

Question of the day then goes, how is the best way to actually record a video for youtube?   I'd love to hear suggestions below. As for now, that's it for my #SelfieSeptember.  Thanks for stopping by ♥

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For the bees!

Somewhere in the last few months, I turned a page and decided that I should really be doing more for the environment.

I went on a crusade - bought metallic straws (that I lost after 24 hours, who even does that?)  - lovingly purchased the most gorgeous ceramic keep cup (which my cat delightfully batted off the bench and I didn't know for about three weeks.)  I bought re-usable containers for my food (which I keep losing the lids for. Seriously, where the fudge do they go?)  and I've always been an adamant person who doesn't believe in turning heaters on when there's blankets to be had.  (Because who doesn't want more blankets in their life?)

But the one thing that has really stuck out to me over the last few months, apart from my apparent addiction to coffee, is bees.

Bees

 

"Bees, Claire? Really? Why?"

Maybe I should clarify it's actually quite the distinct lack of  bees.
See, growing up - there was so many freaking bees everywhereeee. And those mofo's sting like hell if you peeve one off!  10/10 don't recommend this at all. However, it occured to me that there hasn't been any bees around lately to even slightly worry about this.  So here's a pretty pure hearted story for you.

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So I was running late for work a few mornings ago, and let me tell you, I'm suuuuuper bad at trying to get up and doing things at the best of times,  and that 10000% includes getting ready in the mornings.  This wasn't even one of my classic "okay, yeah, maybe I'm only behind like five minutes-"

No.
Of course not.

This was a very much "Shiiiit I'm fifteen minutes behind. I'm in trouble."  sort of late.
So here I am absolutely racing to my car and just as I'm about to jump in - here's a bee.

On my car.

Just chilling.

And I'm just looking at it going,  you little buddy are not going to make it if I start driving.
Do you think I could have one less bee in the world on my conscience?  Hell nah.   Even if it meant being ridiculously late - I was saving this little buddies stinger.  Being the Queen of Procastination I am, I had a heap of kids books hiding in my boot that was meant to go to the local charity drop off the weekend prior.  I had to scoop this little buddy onto such a flat piece of paper and I don't know if bees can give you death stares- but if they could, pretty sure I got one.

So happy endings, I put them on the flower bush in our garden and saved it from a very uncomfy death by car.

I hope the little thing is okay, I'm really rooting for our bees.

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What are you doing to help the environment?  Have a cute story about saving a wombat or helping a cute family of ducks cross the road? Let me know in the comments below!

Fern Glade | North Tasmania

Look, I think I may be a bit bias towards my love of the North West.  It's where I spent the first five years of my life, and honestly - as much as I  love Hobart, the North will always have my heart. (Insert Game of Thrones reference here).  I always have one memory in particular of this place that we spotted platypuses (platypi?) one night when it was nearing dusk, and as you may have guessed - it was this great little place called Fern Glade.

 

Over the weekend, we carpooled up to Burnie to see off my cousin who, I may add as an amazing achievement, is heading overseas on a four-year scholarship. But as the farewell wasn't until later in the evening, the #Roadtripfam had some time to kill.  When suggested what would I like to do -and the typical response of "Take photos and walk" was the answer, we took a trip up to Fern Glade, which features on Tasmania's top 60 short walks.   It's only a short drive away from the Burnie CBD as well - so really, you've got no excuse not to visit.

 

When we arrived, typical Tassie weather ensued, and within minutes of our walk - it started raining so hooray for hooded jumpers and bringing spare towels in the car!

 

As I mentioned a little earlier, Fern Glade is an amazing spot to try and see Platypi - although we were unlucky on this occasion. They like to show themselves early morning and late afternoon - so our 1PM house call wasn't going to win us any favours.

 

There was a much further walk than what we did - and I'd recommend to head up there in that early morning timing to get the full appreciation and beauty of the place.

 

Quick side note ||
Fern Glade is not dog friendly and is fineable to bring them in - so be aware if travelling with your furry friend.

Have you done any of Tasmania's short walks?  Or have you ever been to Fern Glade?  Let me know in the comments!

 

 

Clairesupersmall